You hear warnings about it all the time: your virtual self really never does go away. In my case maybe that’s not a bad thing. After being gone for over a year, I can conjure up my old self with a few simple keystrokes.
I’m ready to – actually, I think I need to – start writing again. Amazingly I remembered how to find my internet footprint and I spent part of my morning reading over my old posts, some with a smile, others with a cringe, and realizing how much my life has changed in the past year.
I could write pages about transitions, renovations, adjustments and variations, but perhaps the biggest change in the last year is, well, me. Somehow, I lost 30 pounds since January. It’s kind of surreal, because while I’ve known that I had some weight to lose, I had no idea that it was THIRTY POUNDS, and no real plan to do it.
Then, one day last winter, I was reading on some forum or other about a website called LoseIt.com, and I started playing around with it on a whim. It’s hard to describe the process because I truly didn’t think it was going to be a process. I’d tried other sites previously, but I didn’t have the patience or commitment to continue with them. I had no reason to believe that this time would be any different, and to be honest, it didn’t even really bother me. I was so used to failure-by-lack-of-trying that I was kind of expecting to give up after a couple of days.
Strangely, this time it stuck. Maybe the timing was right; maybe the site is amazing and magical, or maybe I just was more fed up with being fat than I’d realized. Whatever it was, I started to lose weight, and that feeling was addictive. For once, instead of feeling deprived by healthy eating, I felt empowered. I don’t think I really believed that I’d be able to lose 30 pounds, but as the numbers on the scale started to creep downwards, I realized that it was more than completely possible; it was inevitable.
And now here I am, back to a size 4, feeling proud of what I’ve accomplished and walking a little taller. It’s not just the physical difference; I feel like I can succeed at something. I think I had stopped believing that quite a long time ago.
Accomplishment breeds aspiration, and I feel ready to take on other challenges, my blog among them. I have no intention of writing a weight-loss blog; there are a ton (no pun intended) of those out there already and it’s just not who I am. That’s not to say that I’ll never post about weight loss, or the struggles and successes I might have; after all, this is my space, and if that’s on my mind, that’s what you’ll get.
If you are new here, welcome. I hope you’ll stick around and even add your thoughts in the comments now and then.
And for anyone returning here after a long absence, (myself included), welcome back.